To start things off on this 30days of truth journey, I am to name something I hate about myself. I laughed at first and thought, "I have to pick just one?" Then, after more thought, I came to realize that while I may dislike a few aspects of my person, both inside and out, there really is only one thing I can put the label "hate" on.
At this point in my life the thing I hate most about myself is my inability to live in the present. I'm rarely in the here and now, usually my mind is off wandering through things undone, things done incorrectly, or things that are highly unlikely to ever happen. Talk about work! But the work part of it isn't why I hate it. It keeps me from enjoying my life. It keeps me from enjoying my kids. It keeps me from fully enjoying all the amazing things in this world! That's not nice, and it certainly isn't fair.
And I am, in fact, working to remedy that. I have been going to a counselor, therapist, whatever you'd like to call her and am working to bring myself out of my head and into my life. I'm not embarrassed or ashamed to admit I needed help to do it, and I hope it doesn't take too long. I've already missed out on enough of my life.
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I'm too chicken (or lazy) to do all this on my own blog, so I'm doing it with you on yours.
I hate that I am unsettled. I'm not bipolar--I'm multipolar. Constantly reinventing myself, rethinking everything, changing my beliefs, my likes and dislikes, etc. It's exhausting, and I feel bad for my poor husband, who must wonder some days who on earth he married. :)
You are more than welcome to join me here! :)
I feel ya on this one! Likes & dislikes change as we grow and mature (or don't, lol!) I have trouble explaining that to Brent sometimes as my music/tv/reading/food preferences change.
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