Beating my head against a wall....

Sounds fun right? and it is, until the headache sets in.

I am a control freak. There I said it. (and admitting it is half the battle right?) So I try like the dickens to control everyone and everything in my life. Not the best idea, especially when you have kids. These little people tend to not conform to anything, and the more you push, the more they push back. And darn it all if they aren't individuals! I know, right?! *sigh* Hence the whole beating my head against a wall, literally some days.

On another note, I'm pretty sure I have a mild case of O.C.D. and I'm positive that it is not something you want when raising aforementioned little people. I like things a certain way, ok, so sometimes it's more of a need than a like. My husband isn't much help, he enjoys messing with my neuroses by moving things, or putting them back in new places. Needless to say all this rigidity in me doesn't bode well for my relationship with the kiddos. I have to stop and apologize constantly, explaining as I do "your mother is a crazy person, please forgive her" (talking in the third person kind of messes with them too) I'm working on it though, and I hope to have it under control (there I go again with the control issues) before I do major damage causing them grief and years of therapy!

In the meantime, I think I will go buy a helmet.