I am pregnant.
It isn't the joyous celebration that most people feel when they hear that news.
It is panic, it is dread, it is wrong.
I was done having kids. In fact there are many times I question my choice to ever start.
...but along came baby anyways.
Upon learning this news, and after many weeks of attempted denial, I am now faced with a decision.
Can I do this?
Can I start over again? Am I capable of providing this kid with the resources it needs to not only survive in this world, but to thrive?
For me the answer is simply no. I cannot.
But what I can do, what I will do, is find this child a loving family. I have the power to seek out a family that wants and needs this baby. A family that will be all that I cannot.
I will adopt this child out.
I will give a gift.
2 comments:
Always know that I am here for you when you need a shoulder to cry, laugh or ears to which can you to vent.
I just discovered this, and you've just given birth to a beautiful little boy, and the gift has been given to some very amazing people. I hope you are able to share with us a bit of what you've gone through and continue to share some photos as he grows up.
I know I keep saying this, but you truly ARE AMAZING K8!
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