Disappointment

I have been trying to get healthy. I am working on losing weight, eating better, getting enough sleep, meditating daily, and overall trying to cope with life's stresses better. I am fat, there is no way around saying that, I simply am.

A friend of mine has been changing her life in leaps and bounds and looks fabulous! I have to admit, part of me is jealous, but most of me is inspired. I look at all she has accomplished and want that for myself. She and I talked about entering a 5K together. I ran cross-country in middle school (years ago) and haven't considered myself a runner since. I started a training program (couch to 5K) and am on my way to being a runner again.

However, even with all the walking/running I've done, I haven't seen the results I wanted to on the scale. My clothes fit the same, I lost and gained the same 10lbs within a week! Talk about frustrating! I am limiting my evening snacks, cutting back on excess carbs, and trying to get as much raw/fresh veggies and fruit as possible. All of that and the minimum 30mins workout a day I should see something change right?!

I dread the thought of going to a doctor. I think of most of them as pill pushers who work for the pharmaceutical and insurance companies rather than the patients. I know something else is going on here that my body is fighting me the way it is.... it can't possibly be all stress can it?

*Sigh* Looks like I'm going to have to suck it up and go to a doc.